For the last 4 days I have slept 10 to 11 hours per night. It feels so good and every morning I wake up at 6am thinking I have to teach at my elementary school – my alarm clock was turned off. Not only have I been sleeping well, I have been cooking the most delicous dishes such as homemade spicy chili and tomorrow I plan on making guacomole dip out of my one avacado. To make guacomole, all you have to do is add lemon juice, chopped onion, a pinch of salt (which I would totally omit), and a splash of olive oil. Don’t forget to mash the avacodo with a fork first. It sounds like I’m an expert, but I have fortunately found the website called allrecipes.com and it shows how to make the guacomole and cut the avacado in video form.
The reason I’m writing this blog tonight is that my date did a ‘no show’. So, I have all the time in the world to cook and watch videos on cooking. That means, that he did not call in advance to tell me he had other plans and when I called him; he did not answer his phone when I called. I was supposed to meet him at 7pm at his house address (really he should come pick me up if he wanted to date me) and I called at 6:40pm and he was out drinking with his buddies downtown. I would have been okay if he invited me to join him and his friends, but his friends are of a higher priority than me. Everyone tells me it wasn’t meant to be. Even though he wrote several text messages to tell me… hmmm… let me read them again. He wrote me 5 text messages in total and too chicken to call. He did say he was sorry. Why I waste my time writing about this. Either I’m not hot enough to date or he doesn’t meet my expectations. I think it could have been meant to be as he is totally my type. He has a financially secure job selling drilling and contruction parts for the oil industry in Alberta and he works in the tallest building in Calgary – Petro Canada, and he sincerely cares about the well being of me – not anymore though.
For example, he didn’t want me to take the c-train by myself on one of the first meetings and he offered to take the c-train half way home with me to ensure I got home safe. However, I now remember the details that he didn’t want me to take a c-train at all that night as the homeless people got on the c-train on 8th and 8th. But, no matter what stop I get on, the homeless natives with their bottles of listerine and drugs to smoke will always be on the train. This guy wanted me to walk 10 blocks before getting on the train at a further stop as he thought no homeless natives would be on the train at 1:30am – they are on the train either way! I wanted to go home and it didn’t matter where I would have gotten on the train as homeless people live and sleep day and night on it and almost all c-train stations too until they get kicked off or arrested by police. But most of the time, they get ignored and forgotten by society which is sad.
I guess this guy and I are through. I wrote him my last text message expressing that i don’t believe he was sorry and that he would call one of his friends if he wasn’t going to show. I can’t believe he told me to meet him at his house at 7pm and failed to tell me right away that he was busy drinking with his buddies. He always did like having a boys night out. Maybe it’s good that I’m not a part of it. He should have returned my calls and my last 2 text messages – but I wrote back saying he was too chicken shit to do that and totally not cool of him. “What is your deal?” I questioned. I finished the text with, “Whatever.”. He’s not worth my time, but I was willing to fit some time for him. Damn, he was a good guy and totally my type in every way. I’m through with him. Oh, and it’s confirmed too as I told our friend, that we share, what he did.
I don’t blame myself for this date not working out, but I wish he would have called or written back after I sent him the text message: “I would have hoped that you would have called me earlier to tell me u made other plans. I guess I’m going out with my friends tonight. I’m all dressed up & not waiting around. I tried calling you.” I visited my neighbours (2 blocks away where I used to live) and I had planned on going to a house party in the south of Calgary, but I figured I shouldn’t drive as I already had 2 glasses of red wine when I was at my neighbour’s place. I don’t know why this breaks me apart so much so that I have to write about it. Guys typically always let you down.
Except, I went on a get together last night (Friday) and he was super nice and all but he is 2.5 years younger than me. In fact, he is the one that told me that. When he saw that the bill was $55, he said he would only pay for his drinks and food. But, when I first met him, he did offer to pay for my drinks. Why did he bail? I think it was because the drinks were $5.25 a piece and we had shots and wings too. He’s a working man at Tireman or whatever here in Calgary, but he did not pay for my drinks like he said he would and I’m insulted. At the same time paying 50/50 is respectful in a mutual sorta way. I don’t think I will ever marry, I’m not what they are looking for as they think I’m weak and not hot looking. When I was in elementary school, kids used to say “ethiopian kid” but I still like wearing skirts in the summer.
I’m applying to a sports bar and a night club downtown. Don’t know how well that will go as I’m too small chested and I don’t wear heels. But with my new $150 parking ticket and my rent being raised soon, I better get one good paying job and I will do my best to work my tips. Work it even if the guys I liked didn’t see the potential. But I still don’t have anything bad to say about the ‘no show’ guy. I just wish he had called and had been honest with me. C’est la vie despite the heartache. I’m just too nice and that’s my number one drawback.
